::: Static in my Head :::

Static in my head
I'll never understand my bed
a place to relax and rest your head
no rest here just he said she said

The truth hurts
the lies feel great
I dream of flirts
reality is what I hate

They all seem lost
yet I feel the worst
my eyes show the cost
place my pain in the hearse

They don't understand
I can't open up the way dream to
the fear surrounds me like sand
water is down to a drop or two

hallucinations are all I have left
happiness gone, call it theft
the devil enjoys my pain
my heart is full of his rain

Static in my head
I'll never understand my bed
a place to relax and rest your head
no rest here just he said she said

channels of confusion plague me
shades of gray closing in
color in my soul fading, hard to see
hope is hard to find so how do I win?

nice guys finish last said the loser with wit
throwing in the towel now
why be last when you can just quit
flipping the board on all for now.

This leaves me with forks in the road
courage and confidence at rock bottom now
write how I feel with sadness to be sold
true smiles, emotions and tears I will not allow.

Catch me if you can tonight
with a true emotion on my face
for that is me in the light
the real me not the bullshit mace