Lost in my head

I feel like if I go to the right I hurt and get hurt and if I go to the left I get the same results. If I do neither I will expire and cease to exist.

I reach down and see if I can find an ejection cord but hand comes up empty. Swear pours down face and I taste my own fear. Frustration is at a level I reach rarely.

The saga continues of this fucked up life I lead. Maybe one day I will figure it out or not. I just hope I so before its to late.

So confused

I'm feeling so lost and confused. Not sure what to do but i know everyday I sit here I'm getting into a deeper hole. Should I stay and invest more or leave and take the time invested as a loss. So frustrated I just want to get drunk and never wake up -_-