He came and it was if a missing piece was found and put back in the right spot. Yet the stay itself was just a few days and before I knew it I was sending him back on the plane to his mom. This is the way it will be and I shouldn't complain because it could be worse. As I work with my ex I have made the relationship with my son stronger and stronger. She has been great and I have to thank her for that.
When he landed he was happy but sad and emotional that he left me and my heart felt for him. I'm looking forward to the next trip he makes out here. His trip gave me a recharge of life and I love it and I want it again. Got me focused again some how. Maybe because I want to him to be proud and know when he is here all is good. Plus I want to be able to afford for him to come out here again sooner then later. I have the incentives now I just have to execute it which is always the fun part but I will. Despite the fact that the money well is dry I will find a new well some how and take care of him.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
Friends and Time
Time passes and so do the people in my life. I guess I should just except it even though I wish I could control. I want to feel like I have my life figured out but as always I'm proven wrong again and again.
To keep friendships in the fresh state is hard either because I choose I don't want to or visa versa. I'm generally what I tend to call a reflective friend. Meaning that I generally put into the friendship whatever the other one does. Some times more while other times less but generally I'm reflective.
The problem I find and time has proven me this over and over again. People settle in and just put the freshness of the relationship on a back burner. Not be a hypocrite I catch myself doing it as well but I still hate it.
In the past few months new friendships have been entering my world, others blossoming and sadly some are just fading into the background. I'm ok with some but not ok with others. That being said I'm excepting it as hard as it may be, its life and I know I will move on.
To end on a happy note I had one person enter my life that I am so happy she did. She has just been a great breath of fresh air and yes it sounds all gay but I don't care ....LOL. She's a friend I want to keep around because like a rare diamond they are hard to come by :)
To keep friendships in the fresh state is hard either because I choose I don't want to or visa versa. I'm generally what I tend to call a reflective friend. Meaning that I generally put into the friendship whatever the other one does. Some times more while other times less but generally I'm reflective.
The problem I find and time has proven me this over and over again. People settle in and just put the freshness of the relationship on a back burner. Not be a hypocrite I catch myself doing it as well but I still hate it.
In the past few months new friendships have been entering my world, others blossoming and sadly some are just fading into the background. I'm ok with some but not ok with others. That being said I'm excepting it as hard as it may be, its life and I know I will move on.
To end on a happy note I had one person enter my life that I am so happy she did. She has just been a great breath of fresh air and yes it sounds all gay but I don't care ....LOL. She's a friend I want to keep around because like a rare diamond they are hard to come by :)
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