So it's been a while since I've been here but I would think it was because so many positives have happened in my life over the negatives that I put this on the side. The reality is I'm back here because so the negative is sneaking back to me, well not that great of sneaking due to the fact that I know it is back. Is it depression or just confusion I do not know but I do know that I'm not feeling right. I feel like I took 10 steps forward on the escalator of life but the switch was reset and now it's heading down.
I wonder why things happen the way they due or why things can seem so right when in fact it feels like it was a facade. Real or not I'm falling back into this slump that I felt or thought I have moved on from a few months ago. Was it there the whole time or was it really gone and now just back. To try to figure that out is like figuring out which color was first picked for the American flag. Does anyone really care or would it really make a difference????? No you would;t. The question I have is why now?
Things were going well and i think they still are. That being said I'm still annoyed and lost when it comes to expressing myself. I try but with out question I hold back. Why ....LOL Who knows I just know it sucks.
So my frown inside is starting to resurface and my hands still look on for me as I feel blinded again as the sun settles again in my life. So the weeks ahead of me will be the new maze of the life I lead but I will do my best to get to the end before I fall apart again.
I'll be back to check in and as I see the road looks complex enough to for me to pull over to one of the save places I know. Here :
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