It's funny how life leads you through many different sunsets and we find ourselves sleeping under one roof but waking up in another. Like lab rats we think we know what were doing, hunting through the maze of life looking for the food that we crave so much. Yet as we reach the ecstasy of what we believe is the food that will fill our stomachs from the hunger we are stuck with. The next day we are placed in a new maze and we must look for that fulfillment all over again.
To me it is one vicious cycle we are stuck in that individuals like myself just want to be free of it. I don't know how except I find myself being placed in more complex mazes that are filled with new obstacles that I could not imagine. Yet I make it through with scars and shortness of breath. Each time I sit down and reevaluate what I have done and shock myself but I continue with my head held high. However at each start I feel less and less confident as the trigger is pulled. My head weighs more and more and it cause strain in my back as I try to keep my head above.
So what is there for me to do? Honestly I do not think I can do anything because just like a lab rat I'm placed in a cage at the end of the day. Oh the frustration I feel, the thoughts that haunt me ...they are stuck in the cage called my head.
I will just deal with it as it is and play with the cards I am dealt. I know I can't win and the hands I do are just fake money that means nothing once the game is over besides some temporary satisfaction.
So I stand alone in this corner called my life and wait my turn to place my bets and show my hand. With hope out the window as reality shines through i will play the game and keep my sportsmanship as strong as I can. I invite you to sit down and play a game with me as I know these games only last so long and it is only a matter of time before I'm out of chips. When that time comes i will with all the best, bow and walk away with the memories from the card table.
Let's play ;)
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