Every tool and their mother gets excited it's Friday because the week comes to an end. That is great I guess because then you have the weekend to relax and take a break from life.
What if your entire week was a weekend? Not that mine was I just wonder if you even care or is this question its self stupid in the first place. I vote for stupid question.
So as my day went on I felt this evilness which is the depression I swallow all the time trying to get out. How do you keep it in because you know if it comes out it will make you miserable. So I did what I knew best and got out and interacted with the world. Even better I bumped into a friend that invited me for dinner tonight woohoo Now I'm forced to keep my shit together.
Yes I know it's not a good thing what I'm doing and I'm not fixing anything just simply suppressing it. So I wonder if that is such a bad thing? People always tell me that you must get it out but generally those are the people that are always getting it out. Are they doing much better by getting it out? They will claim yes and I would agree but at the same time I will continue to not get it out like they say I should.
So why would I do something knowing it isn't helping me? I don't know, maybe because it's easier to deal with and like smokers who know their inhaling cancer but continue to smoke. "What's one more?" they say.
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Well my day did get better and I had dinner with some friends and than other friends came over later and we chilled and drank and I felt great. There gone now and I'm tired and yet the evil is peeking out behind the shades. Hopefully I can sleep it off and it will be gone by tomorrow but we'll see.
Life is full of so much and I shouldn't focus on the negative or at least pretend not too ....lol.
Good night people ;)
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