Open The Bottle

My mind was running wild, emotions all over the place and I couldn't seem to get a grip on it. Every time I felt I might have figured something out I realized I was more confussed then before. I was having a hard time sleeping, concentrating or getting thet basic ABC's of the week done. I then felt myself sliping back to my old ways and just botteling it all up and I figured it would simply slip away. Yes it is the wrong thing but I knew it was the only way.

The weekend approached and the stress was extreme and I knew this was my chance to put it all into that little bottle that has a capacity larger than I could ever imagine. Plans were set, friends in order and the receipie of a storm was perfect.

The weekend .....

It's Sunday evening as I write this and like magic it's almost all gone. Amazing what I can do and as unhealthy as it maybe I did what I had to and now I am actually happy.

Is it a fake happiness? No. Was the happiness reached through a bad habbit? Yes.

Through it all I did make light of some of the crazyness in my head and that that I couldn't, like a black hole I put it all away. So I conclude with this whole experiance that I can't fix all my issues, problems, concerns and everything else. It's ok to except things for what they are and if need be put it in a place where it can't bother you if you can.

Talk to you soon ;) - KM