::: Floating :::

Looking for something ....
Not sure why but my mind is all over
I feel it's not in my head.
over my body in an awkward hover

I'm sitting here alone
the walls stare at me
clouds float in the distance
together, no resistance

my digital portal sits on my lap
waiting for me to let it rest
my mind is all over ...I'm a mess
this is a fact I can't contest.

Looking around the cave
I search for a way out
Drawings on the wall
my existence is at a stall

I'm tired of trying
tired of fighting
keeping that smile
am I a liar?

As I prepare for another day
Wondering what will be
What's behind the June door
a girl? job? my son? something more?

Got to hope
lips still smiling
for giving up
more painful then trying.