Yesterday I was a mess. My brain was on overdrive and thoughts and emotions were running ramped. I wrote to poems to help me calm down but in the end it was sleep that helped me the most. I even tried to get drunk, well with beer it is very hard. I had 7 in a row and I was just a little buzzed. It did make me tired enough to knock me out for 2 hours on my couch. i should have bought some grey goose, oh well there is always next time right ;)
Today I wake up around 7AM but force myself to go back to sleep and then I wake up and it's 9AM and I push for one more nap and then 10:30 rolls around. I wake up with thoughts in my head just slowing down to reasonable pace. My dreams some what still leaving shadows in my heads but I'm sure they will be mostly gone in a few.
Today should be better despite the clouds that are covering NYC. I will get some errands done today and continue to focus on the positives in life. I do find it funny that I can lock all my emotions up and to everyone else I can sound as happy or as "KM" can be but I can't fool myself. There are people that lie all the time that they eventually believe there own lies why can't I believe my own smile?
I guess only a fool would.
So hello to this fine Tuesday, I'm going to make the best of it. See you all later.
i new it
ReplyDeletei new something was buggin y0u last nite [i cuz feel it throu y0ur voice -_-] but i didnt ask cuz i guess if y0u didnt bring it up itz cuz y0u dnt want to speak bout it
I didn't want to bring u down. I wanted to talk to u but just felt like u were so happy I wanted to be happy for u as well.
ReplyDeleteiknow how you feel sometimes bro
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ReplyDeleteNah but if you need to talk I'm here even if I'm feelin like the greatest woman in the world cuz we are frndz n try 1z :)
ReplyDeleteur the best, seriously ;)
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