Understanding Me

Thinking way to much these days,

Finally making some headway.

I try to be honest with myself as much as possible despite how much it sucks at times. This past weekend I realized new things about me. About the people around me and what I should do however I know it's easier said then done.

I'm aware now how insecure I am these days ... I always was but it explained a few things to me. I see why I was feeling more insecure and it hit me like a smack to the back of my head. My head like a rubix cube was finally another step closer to figuring out who I am.

The sun came out behind the clouds to expose more reality. So now I'm running wild on some BS but the point in this whole discovery ...LOL. I have to be strong and focus on me and leave Mr. Nice guy home. Be responsible and get shit together.

How to get in order is what I have to figure out. Crawl, walk then run as they say, so I will see how it goes. As I crawl and take it slow I willhope that I make right decisions that benifit ME despite it hurts others. I have just been trying to take care of the world, well the people around me and as a result been killing myself. If I continue in my old ways I will gone not able to help anyone.