Funny how time changes everything. Things that were, aren't anymore, well at least different. That is just the ways of human nature and I include myself in that too. I am fortunate to have so many people in my life that I am exposed to so many ways they interact with others. Like a large science experiment I can watch and monitor how people do what they do and why. It just sucks when you are loving one way of life and one day u wake up and notice something is off. You let it go at first but it starts to eat at you as for the reason why. You come to find out that over time things have changed and of course things won't stay the same because that's just the way life is however you notice how far things have gone. Will it ever be the way it was ... I don't think so but can it go back to the way that will still be great.
In new relationships regardless if its with a boy friend or girlfriend, job, friendship or anything else you have the honeymoon period. Titled that because of how great it is and the feelings you get in return. Once that is over your left with a relationship that will stay strong only if energy and determination is paced into it. It takes both sides to keep the foundation strong and allow the the relationship to shine.
I find myself in a bad position in life because when I'm in a solid relationship with a person, job, etc I put allot into it and expect the same in return and in most cases I don't get the same return. I know I have failed others who invest more then I do so don't claim to always be the best at giving the return. So why do I continue to do what I do ... Well what I generally do after a while I with draw back into my cave where I don't feel like I'm vulnerable to get hurt. Its a defense I use and it's not always the best thing to do but it's where I feel safe.
Life is interesting :)
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment